Beck my Ex
Feeling it in the back of my throat
Words like boys get board and run
Now I’ve got nothing you should see me
I’ve reached the point when all I want to do is
Sleep around hoping I don’t catch bad luck
This would have been the song of my heart breaking
Was it worth is when you slept with her
B is for believing you’d always be here for me
E is everything you had the nerve to put me through
C is for seeing you for what you really are
K brings us full circle to me kicking you out the door
Probably just need time to walk it off
But when your heart stops pumping
Picking up limbs is pretty tough
And you’re sitting outside so I’m wondering
If you’re listening, can you hear me
But what does it matter anymore
You got what you wanted just leave
Words like boys get board and run
Now I’ve got nothing you should see me
I’ve reached the point when all I want to do is
Sleep around hoping I don’t catch bad luck
This would have been the song of my heart breaking
Was it worth is when you slept with her
B is for believing you’d always be here for me
E is everything you had the nerve to put me through
C is for seeing you for what you really are
K brings us full circle to me kicking you out the door
Probably just need time to walk it off
But when your heart stops pumping
Picking up limbs is pretty tough
And you’re sitting outside so I’m wondering
If you’re listening, can you hear me
But what does it matter anymore
You got what you wanted just leave
Diamond or Rhinestone
Should I allow myself to be a diamond or a rhinestone?
From the dude who would give anything to be with me…
Who would put me on the highest pedestal…
Don’t I deserve to be a diamond?
From the dude who doesn’t know what he has…
So does that mean I don’t know my worth…
Or am I worth nothing just a common rhinestone?
Should I stay in a comfortable place and avoid pressure?
From the guy who has me by my heart…
And squeezes until that agonizing pain…
Becomes all I can handle at one point…
From the guy who wants me…
To just let go and give in….
To everything in my heart…
From the dude who would give anything to be with me…
Who would put me on the highest pedestal…
Don’t I deserve to be a diamond?
From the dude who doesn’t know what he has…
So does that mean I don’t know my worth…
Or am I worth nothing just a common rhinestone?
Should I stay in a comfortable place and avoid pressure?
From the guy who has me by my heart…
And squeezes until that agonizing pain…
Becomes all I can handle at one point…
From the guy who wants me…
To just let go and give in….
To everything in my heart…
The End
You pulled the trigger that ended thee
Bring to life my biggest fear
You short the bullet that killed me
The sound of a shot ringing loud and clear
I drowned out all my senses
Can’t even hear my heart beating
But that’s what I get for loving you
You were the one who wrote in the final kiss
Watching the curtains go fall down
You had to be the one who caused this
My last words on the lips of everyone in town
Bring to life my biggest fear
You short the bullet that killed me
The sound of a shot ringing loud and clear
I drowned out all my senses
Can’t even hear my heart beating
But that’s what I get for loving you
You were the one who wrote in the final kiss
Watching the curtains go fall down
You had to be the one who caused this
My last words on the lips of everyone in town
Should I believe?
Why…
Why should I believe
Any of the three words
That just left your mouth
Because the first word was
I signaling that it came
Directly from your heart
Or
Because the second word
Was love, which can be
Stained with pressure, lust, envy,
And question of the future
And last the word you
Saying it was meant for me
And only me because I’m
The person in front of
You
So in the end
We have I love you
Which is the most commonly
Used phrase in the world
So
It comes form different
I’s and goes to different
You’s and meaning is to
Be the same
Sorry no
Why should I believe
Any of the three words
That just left your mouth
Because the first word was
I signaling that it came
Directly from your heart
Or
Because the second word
Was love, which can be
Stained with pressure, lust, envy,
And question of the future
And last the word you
Saying it was meant for me
And only me because I’m
The person in front of
You
So in the end
We have I love you
Which is the most commonly
Used phrase in the world
So
It comes form different
I’s and goes to different
You’s and meaning is to
Be the same
Sorry no
Cir-cum-stance
And this is the circumstance of my, yours, and all brake-ups.
Any and all conditions that deal with, are a part of, or attribute to…
With no respect to my time, the place, manner, or agent.
That accompanies, determines, or modifies the fact or event
That I’ll be crying all night thinking about the downs and very little ups.
Circumstances permitting, we deal with it and move on.
And if we can't we'll end up with the circumstance of a bad brake-up.
No doubt later to make up because were in love apparently.
And even if there was truth to the myth of what
You and I had found in a blank page fairy tale.
And thats all this is, he loves me he loves me!
Just not enough.
Any and all conditions that deal with, are a part of, or attribute to…
With no respect to my time, the place, manner, or agent.
That accompanies, determines, or modifies the fact or event
That I’ll be crying all night thinking about the downs and very little ups.
Circumstances permitting, we deal with it and move on.
And if we can't we'll end up with the circumstance of a bad brake-up.
No doubt later to make up because were in love apparently.
And even if there was truth to the myth of what
You and I had found in a blank page fairy tale.
And thats all this is, he loves me he loves me!
Just not enough.
My Love Left On Saturday
My belt loosens slowly.
Reminders of you stay fresh
in murky ponds of suffocating tadpoles.
Wake me in the morning,
when the sun shines again.
It's frightening when all I know
falls apart.
And all I know is you.
Hunger squeezes me tighter.
My soul sags with exhaustion.
Ashtrays fill with sleepless nights.
Weeping intensifies my anxiety.
Can tomorrow come without you...
here today?
The cheap chandelier falls on my face.
The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.
Pain is unrecognizable.
All I knew was you.
You.
My love...
Reminders of you stay fresh
in murky ponds of suffocating tadpoles.
Wake me in the morning,
when the sun shines again.
It's frightening when all I know
falls apart.
And all I know is you.
Hunger squeezes me tighter.
My soul sags with exhaustion.
Ashtrays fill with sleepless nights.
Weeping intensifies my anxiety.
Can tomorrow come without you...
here today?
The cheap chandelier falls on my face.
The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.
Pain is unrecognizable.
All I knew was you.
You.
My love...
Florida Love
Parallel rainfall clashes
With thunder pounding
On my window pane.
I think the gods do
This stuff
On purpose.
Outside it’s raining
And inside I have a
Broken heart.
It doesn't hurt.
Not like I'd expect,
It caresses me
Soothes me.
Time went slowly.
I almost thought
The world had stopped.
That’s when
I made the mistake to look down
At the World of shadows below.
There will be no regrets
At sunrise
Preventing peace
From entering
My being.
Then the sun
Shines light for me to see.
But for now
I can't sleep.
So I'm wondering.
If you're walking the streets
Tonight,
Head bent,
The hood of your jacket
Concealing
A too beautiful face.
You do it often
Trying to run form
Yourself.
"I'm sorry I'm so selfish"
His voice was pure cream
And it came from his soft pouty lips.
Though then
the line seemed
a mute point.
You were trying to get better.
But now you’re taking over
And that’s life.
Nothing is sacred.
My heart twists painfully
In a knot
When I think
Back to that afternoon.
We said farewell
Under a curtain
Of Florida sunlight.
A drapery of pastel
Colors
Hovering
Over our heads.
Now it looks how I feel.
With thunder pounding
On my window pane.
I think the gods do
This stuff
On purpose.
Outside it’s raining
And inside I have a
Broken heart.
It doesn't hurt.
Not like I'd expect,
It caresses me
Soothes me.
Time went slowly.
I almost thought
The world had stopped.
That’s when
I made the mistake to look down
At the World of shadows below.
There will be no regrets
At sunrise
Preventing peace
From entering
My being.
Then the sun
Shines light for me to see.
But for now
I can't sleep.
So I'm wondering.
If you're walking the streets
Tonight,
Head bent,
The hood of your jacket
Concealing
A too beautiful face.
You do it often
Trying to run form
Yourself.
"I'm sorry I'm so selfish"
His voice was pure cream
And it came from his soft pouty lips.
Though then
the line seemed
a mute point.
You were trying to get better.
But now you’re taking over
And that’s life.
Nothing is sacred.
My heart twists painfully
In a knot
When I think
Back to that afternoon.
We said farewell
Under a curtain
Of Florida sunlight.
A drapery of pastel
Colors
Hovering
Over our heads.
Now it looks how I feel.
If Even That
This isn't the end but the beginning
of our good-byes
And I can still see the pain and love
in your eyes
And I can still hear the hurt and passion
in your voice
And i can still feel in your kiss
the question of your choice
But still you say you want to stay distant
don't want the pain of being together
And you say "I still wanna be with you...I wanna always be there and have you in my life but I cant wait forever"
So where does that leave us
because I'm not worried about anyone else?
So how am I suppose to feel
when the best part of me was always you?
But I'm not falling to pieces
only trying to pick the up where they fell
And I can tell you that I'll always love you
but when we'll get back together time can only tell
If even that
of our good-byes
And I can still see the pain and love
in your eyes
And I can still hear the hurt and passion
in your voice
And i can still feel in your kiss
the question of your choice
But still you say you want to stay distant
don't want the pain of being together
And you say "I still wanna be with you...I wanna always be there and have you in my life but I cant wait forever"
So where does that leave us
because I'm not worried about anyone else?
So how am I suppose to feel
when the best part of me was always you?
But I'm not falling to pieces
only trying to pick the up where they fell
And I can tell you that I'll always love you
but when we'll get back together time can only tell
If even that
You love me of every other rhythm
You love me of every other rhythm
thumb against the sunkist silk
You love me not of every picked petal
sitting at my bed edge
“You love me” the words roll
sweetly and without a reason
You love me not because
fate plays you back a forth
And back to the promised love
more promised the before
But still not brings you back
and a not promised future
thumb against the sunkist silk
You love me not of every picked petal
sitting at my bed edge
“You love me” the words roll
sweetly and without a reason
You love me not because
fate plays you back a forth
And back to the promised love
more promised the before
But still not brings you back
and a not promised future
I Typed A One Hundred Word
I typed a one hundred and one word. None of which you have ever heard. I know even if I spoke a third it would mean nothing at all. See I would give almost all. Put myself in for a great fall. And it shouldn’t leave any wondering at all. So if this is how it is when I’m gone. The thoughts of when you go to college are so wrong. Not good thinking at all. So my date of birth is only hours away. And the only thing I have to say. If you don’t call, say something at all…This would make one hundred and nine more. And even though my fingers hurt my heart is a little sorer. Because here I sit wondering how an “I’ll call you later” on Wednesday. Could lead to not hearing from and it’s Saturday. But I’m not hoping at all. In my time, ten hours away. And only nine your way. There’s nothing left I’m saying at all.
What We Are
Twisted we are, as in intertwined together.
Looking at my reflection in the broken glass.
Wondering if it'll be this bad forever.
Unraveled we are, as in disclosed from our hearts.
Timing if this dirt fall will pass.
Hoping this dark taste of rapture comes in parts.
And as we all have a few words to keep this running
smoothly what happens when your hearts become twisted.
And together unravels. Now as you watch the dirt settle
and step over broken glass, your left wondering. looking.
Hoping. And timing when this hell is going to end.
Looking at my reflection in the broken glass.
Wondering if it'll be this bad forever.
Unraveled we are, as in disclosed from our hearts.
Timing if this dirt fall will pass.
Hoping this dark taste of rapture comes in parts.
And as we all have a few words to keep this running
smoothly what happens when your hearts become twisted.
And together unravels. Now as you watch the dirt settle
and step over broken glass, your left wondering. looking.
Hoping. And timing when this hell is going to end.
Kameron R. Woodard
To one who use to be my boyfriend.
Wishing on a star to keep a heart I do not deserve. I dare not open my eyes to see if your here. Just reach out my hand to feel if your near. Trying to tell you I love you, but I can't work up the nerve.
Deep inside I know you can do better. Whether it's because it all seems too perfect. Or the weight of your heart is too much and I don't want to break it. Seems putting mine back takes forever.
But I know when you kiss me I lose account for place & time. My breathing gets heavy and slows. And your heart beat matches mine. All who's been in-love knows how that gets.
And I know I tend to get so insecure. Over look big emotions and under look small details. But it doesn't matter anymore.
Wishing on a star to keep a heart I do not deserve. I dare not open my eyes to see if your here. Just reach out my hand to feel if your near. Trying to tell you I love you, but I can't work up the nerve.
Deep inside I know you can do better. Whether it's because it all seems too perfect. Or the weight of your heart is too much and I don't want to break it. Seems putting mine back takes forever.
But I know when you kiss me I lose account for place & time. My breathing gets heavy and slows. And your heart beat matches mine. All who's been in-love knows how that gets.
And I know I tend to get so insecure. Over look big emotions and under look small details. But it doesn't matter anymore.
Rain Cloud
Every recognition of her existence
by him filler her big black eyes with the
shining look of rain falling in wet leaves.
She does deserve him. She was
unaccustomed to being adored by a man in a
single-minded way.
That is adoration was patient and
waiting while love or, if you liked, plain
sexual passion banged everything about.
It either should or thought it knew
too much and it had always left her cold
and had not involved her heart.
What sort of woman was she, who only
gives away to love under extreme pressure
and pain?
by him filler her big black eyes with the
shining look of rain falling in wet leaves.
She does deserve him. She was
unaccustomed to being adored by a man in a
single-minded way.
That is adoration was patient and
waiting while love or, if you liked, plain
sexual passion banged everything about.
It either should or thought it knew
too much and it had always left her cold
and had not involved her heart.
What sort of woman was she, who only
gives away to love under extreme pressure
and pain?
Apologies
Apologies to my biggest fan
For I am just the way I am
And the way I am seem to
Conflict with the way I feel for you
And the love I feel for you seems
To be covered by life’s gleams
So I apologize to my fan
I don’t deserve you loves band
But ironically it matches the way we are
Scratched and marks from here to far
My apologies to you my fan
I’m not doing all I can
For I am just the way I am
And the way I am seem to
Conflict with the way I feel for you
And the love I feel for you seems
To be covered by life’s gleams
So I apologize to my fan
I don’t deserve you loves band
But ironically it matches the way we are
Scratched and marks from here to far
My apologies to you my fan
I’m not doing all I can
From You
Sitting here without a reason as to why. But I cry inside every time you say bye.
But it doesn’t mean nothing at all.
Hard to hold on to. If I don’t run I’ll lose you.
Feeling like I don’t mean nothing at all.
You claim you miss, who? Seems that I’m nothing to. You.
Treat me like I don’t mean nothing at all.
How is it when I’m gone. It just feels so wrong.
And you don’t pay attention to nothing at all.
I say these words. Reaching only the birds.
Because I’ll always get nothing at all.
From you.
But it doesn’t mean nothing at all.
Hard to hold on to. If I don’t run I’ll lose you.
Feeling like I don’t mean nothing at all.
You claim you miss, who? Seems that I’m nothing to. You.
Treat me like I don’t mean nothing at all.
How is it when I’m gone. It just feels so wrong.
And you don’t pay attention to nothing at all.
I say these words. Reaching only the birds.
Because I’ll always get nothing at all.
From you.
Blinded Eye
If I. Told you.
I didn’t give a damn about the way you curl your hair.
And I don’t remember half the cloths you wear.
I’ll wait for you. But I can’t wait forever.
I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye.
But I. Can tell you.
All that matters to me is the face I see.
Then with you, no place I want to be.
I’ll wait for you. But I can’t wait forever.
I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye.
Isn’t this. Our same old story.
Headline of the day, did what you want.
And still can’t get my way, not something you know.
I’ll wait for you. But I can’t wait forever.
I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye.
It’s over. You and I.
Seems like you don’t want this guy.
So I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye
Walk out the door spread my wings.
And fly.
I didn’t give a damn about the way you curl your hair.
And I don’t remember half the cloths you wear.
I’ll wait for you. But I can’t wait forever.
I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye.
But I. Can tell you.
All that matters to me is the face I see.
Then with you, no place I want to be.
I’ll wait for you. But I can’t wait forever.
I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye.
Isn’t this. Our same old story.
Headline of the day, did what you want.
And still can’t get my way, not something you know.
I’ll wait for you. But I can’t wait forever.
I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye.
It’s over. You and I.
Seems like you don’t want this guy.
So I wipe my sleeve on blinded eye
Walk out the door spread my wings.
And fly.
He Once Loved Me
Im happy he once loved me
Once traced my heart with his
Im glad he once treasured me
Once held me highest on a pedestal
Im cheerful he once valued me
Once saw worth in a broken heart
But that was then what seems to be a stark evening ago.
And, my way, love never seems to go.
Im astonished he once cared for me
Once surprisingly held me close
Im ecstatic he once could fit me in
Once waited on my heart
Im happy he once loved me
Once did this entire list
But that was then what has to be a heart turns past.
And, foolish me, thinking it was going to last.
Once traced my heart with his
Im glad he once treasured me
Once held me highest on a pedestal
Im cheerful he once valued me
Once saw worth in a broken heart
But that was then what seems to be a stark evening ago.
And, my way, love never seems to go.
Im astonished he once cared for me
Once surprisingly held me close
Im ecstatic he once could fit me in
Once waited on my heart
Im happy he once loved me
Once did this entire list
But that was then what has to be a heart turns past.
And, foolish me, thinking it was going to last.
In Person
I could never do this in person
All it would take is one look and I’d change my mind
But to stay in this relationship would be unkind
See were hurting each other
Lying that we care about one another
But really all you want is success
And lose me while trying to be the “best”
While I just need attention
And trying everything to get it from you is my affliction
Maybe we would do better later
At this point we just don’t have what it take to cater
To the in’s and out’s of each other’s life
There just aren’t enough joys with the strife
I could never do this in person
It would just be us in an empty hall
And I would find every excuse to stall
Because honestly I don’t want to be over
Would take the luck of a four leaf clover
But I just want things to change
That doesn’t seem to be capable in your range
You would just pass the conversation on
Too busy to even notice I’m gone
Then I would get upset
And you think “I’m sorry” is an issues reset
I could never do this in person
I would think of all the time I wasted on you
With all the ish you put me through
And then I would start yelling
With this whole elaborate speech derailing
Eventually I would start to cry
And you would already know the reason why
So you would hold me until I stop
From that point the argument would drop
I could never do this in person
Because as quickly as we fought
The ending would be brought
With me still being in-love with you
And the make-up would be swift yet true
So we would think this argument was the end
Until it all happen again
I could never do this in person
The cycle would never stop
And my love for you I could never drop
All it would take is one look and I’d change my mind
But to stay in this relationship would be unkind
See were hurting each other
Lying that we care about one another
But really all you want is success
And lose me while trying to be the “best”
While I just need attention
And trying everything to get it from you is my affliction
Maybe we would do better later
At this point we just don’t have what it take to cater
To the in’s and out’s of each other’s life
There just aren’t enough joys with the strife
I could never do this in person
It would just be us in an empty hall
And I would find every excuse to stall
Because honestly I don’t want to be over
Would take the luck of a four leaf clover
But I just want things to change
That doesn’t seem to be capable in your range
You would just pass the conversation on
Too busy to even notice I’m gone
Then I would get upset
And you think “I’m sorry” is an issues reset
I could never do this in person
I would think of all the time I wasted on you
With all the ish you put me through
And then I would start yelling
With this whole elaborate speech derailing
Eventually I would start to cry
And you would already know the reason why
So you would hold me until I stop
From that point the argument would drop
I could never do this in person
Because as quickly as we fought
The ending would be brought
With me still being in-love with you
And the make-up would be swift yet true
So we would think this argument was the end
Until it all happen again
I could never do this in person
The cycle would never stop
And my love for you I could never drop
One Thing
Now I must say one thing
There’s no love in a lap dance
And you can’t stand it
Bet you think with your ass up air in the
Never looked better, just never looked better
What a wonderful character on intimacy
It’s not so crazy and sure not unpredictable
The things in her bed, just not logical
Now I must say two things
I guess it doesn’t feel like a night out
Without anyone sizing you up
Bet you think that’s a really cute dress
Well I bought it as a shirt
What a wonderful character on intimacy
It’s not so crazy and sure not unpredictable
The things in her bed, just not logical
Now I must say three things
Nothing to miss in a one night stand
Trying to remember who you gave your v-card to
I can hear you now trying to figure it out
Was it Dean or David….Dan?
What a wonderful character on intimacy
It’s not so crazy and sure not unpredictable
The things in her bed, just not logical
There’s no love in a lap dance
And you can’t stand it
Bet you think with your ass up air in the
Never looked better, just never looked better
What a wonderful character on intimacy
It’s not so crazy and sure not unpredictable
The things in her bed, just not logical
Now I must say two things
I guess it doesn’t feel like a night out
Without anyone sizing you up
Bet you think that’s a really cute dress
Well I bought it as a shirt
What a wonderful character on intimacy
It’s not so crazy and sure not unpredictable
The things in her bed, just not logical
Now I must say three things
Nothing to miss in a one night stand
Trying to remember who you gave your v-card to
I can hear you now trying to figure it out
Was it Dean or David….Dan?
What a wonderful character on intimacy
It’s not so crazy and sure not unpredictable
The things in her bed, just not logical
Sorry
Sorry I don’t treat you like a goddess
And I don’t see the beauty in your lies too
Sorry I don’t treat you like a princess
Like all your royal subjects do
Sorry I don’t treat you like your perfect
It must be such an inconvenience to you
I’ve heard the last of your lies,
Don’t care for all of your whys,
Because you never seem to hear my cries
Sorry I don’t see you as an angel
Through the realness I can’t see your heavenly glow
Sorry I don’t see you as a star
Their fire can burn out, you know
Sorry I don’t see you as heart
Not understandable, the beat is way too slow
I’ve heard the last of your lies,
Don’t care for all of your whys,
Because you never seem to hear my cries
And I don’t see the beauty in your lies too
Sorry I don’t treat you like a princess
Like all your royal subjects do
Sorry I don’t treat you like your perfect
It must be such an inconvenience to you
I’ve heard the last of your lies,
Don’t care for all of your whys,
Because you never seem to hear my cries
Sorry I don’t see you as an angel
Through the realness I can’t see your heavenly glow
Sorry I don’t see you as a star
Their fire can burn out, you know
Sorry I don’t see you as heart
Not understandable, the beat is way too slow
I’ve heard the last of your lies,
Don’t care for all of your whys,
Because you never seem to hear my cries
Thinking Back
As I walk home in this dreary days flow.
I think back to before our relationships part.
You were a liar form the word go.
From the time I told you to take my heart.
And you engraved it with such a passion.
I wonder how long it would take to scratch it off.
I’ll never know until I take action.
But who says I want to, cough cough.
As I bask in the sunlight of grief.
Trying to think of anything but him.
And your words causing all sorts of mischief.
You won’t even let it be fin.
You’re the reason it happen.
Downright your fault.
Yet you’re over reacting.
And my feelings go against everything I was taught.
I think back to before our relationships part.
You were a liar form the word go.
From the time I told you to take my heart.
And you engraved it with such a passion.
I wonder how long it would take to scratch it off.
I’ll never know until I take action.
But who says I want to, cough cough.
As I bask in the sunlight of grief.
Trying to think of anything but him.
And your words causing all sorts of mischief.
You won’t even let it be fin.
You’re the reason it happen.
Downright your fault.
Yet you’re over reacting.
And my feelings go against everything I was taught.
Chuck
I always needed a shiny car or a diamond shape star to make you smile.
I just haven’t seen that glimpse of heaven in a while.
See you remind me of this girl I use to know named Tiffany,
We use to stay up late talking, she’d read me poetry. But
She looked more like a Brittany I once knew.
Sitting here thinking back to those days in middle school.
Thought we’d be together forever,
When you add into our equation a Trevor…
But that was a long time ago.
Sought out my flaws, dealt with you and all.
Since then I’ve been with a Kayla, Sarah, and that chick Amber you know.
And I can’t forget about that wild college time.
Met that girl Karmen at a bar, first time I had a drink of wine.
And then a couple years later I met you.
Truly, I didn’t like you at first, it’s true.
Little you beautiful but so stuck up.
And you couldn’t even remember my name
Chuck.
I just haven’t seen that glimpse of heaven in a while.
See you remind me of this girl I use to know named Tiffany,
We use to stay up late talking, she’d read me poetry. But
She looked more like a Brittany I once knew.
Sitting here thinking back to those days in middle school.
Thought we’d be together forever,
When you add into our equation a Trevor…
But that was a long time ago.
Sought out my flaws, dealt with you and all.
Since then I’ve been with a Kayla, Sarah, and that chick Amber you know.
And I can’t forget about that wild college time.
Met that girl Karmen at a bar, first time I had a drink of wine.
And then a couple years later I met you.
Truly, I didn’t like you at first, it’s true.
Little you beautiful but so stuck up.
And you couldn’t even remember my name
Chuck.
Youth in Revolt
I told Sheeni I was going to befriend her,
She said to bring a flower back from hell
I told Sheeni I was going to kiss her,
She said for me to keep to myself
I told Sheeni I was going to love her,
She said it was just a summer fling
I told Sheeni I was going to marry her
She said I couldn’t afford her heart
I told Sheeni I was going to write a book about her,
She said it was a terrible idea
I told Sheeni I was going to fight for her,
She said I didn’t know what I was fighting for
She said to bring a flower back from hell
I told Sheeni I was going to kiss her,
She said for me to keep to myself
I told Sheeni I was going to love her,
She said it was just a summer fling
I told Sheeni I was going to marry her
She said I couldn’t afford her heart
I told Sheeni I was going to write a book about her,
She said it was a terrible idea
I told Sheeni I was going to fight for her,
She said I didn’t know what I was fighting for
Alphabetized
And in a place were A-Z is prioritized ahead of me
Being human,simply, I was intrigued at the possibilities
Can you honestly blame me, honestly fight an endless war
Don't give me the crap about being young, Juliet was just a teen
Even if the times have changed
Feelings stay the same
Give me no signs, but I know when it's time to end
He was everything your not, when your not there for me
In for the long run you said you'll be
Just gave us six months and you pushed me away
Kicked my love to the side line
Looking for a chance to go in
Mostly wishing you could give me a little time
Never wanting to be you only star
Of course that, to you, was to much to part
Putting me further and further away
Quietly keeping to myself and
Resting upon a broken heart
So when he came around I happily left you
To, without a doubt, be completely a lone
Understatement of the year, everyone needs somebody
Very caring, considerate, & always there
When life gets to much to bare
Xeroxes of compassion don't amount to anything
Your only need is a
Zinnia of emotions from a person to...
...whom ever the Me may be.
Being human,simply, I was intrigued at the possibilities
Can you honestly blame me, honestly fight an endless war
Don't give me the crap about being young, Juliet was just a teen
Even if the times have changed
Feelings stay the same
Give me no signs, but I know when it's time to end
He was everything your not, when your not there for me
In for the long run you said you'll be
Just gave us six months and you pushed me away
Kicked my love to the side line
Looking for a chance to go in
Mostly wishing you could give me a little time
Never wanting to be you only star
Of course that, to you, was to much to part
Putting me further and further away
Quietly keeping to myself and
Resting upon a broken heart
So when he came around I happily left you
To, without a doubt, be completely a lone
Understatement of the year, everyone needs somebody
Very caring, considerate, & always there
When life gets to much to bare
Xeroxes of compassion don't amount to anything
Your only need is a
Zinnia of emotions from a person to...
...whom ever the Me may be.
A Poem For A Girl Named Kennedy
As the fog rolls in on a familiar scene
Thunder rumbles, lightning strikes
Nicotine and a faded dream
Standing in the moon light, all I see is you
Your eyes across the lake
Beautiful pools of lust
Your words is all it would take
To let all of life's worries melt away
If I close my eyes an stop breathing forever
I can't watch the past roll away
When were right under the eye of the storm
Palm to palm and body to body
You can't even keep we warm
frozen hearts don't thaw
All you do is keep a slushy heart beating
Sharp crystals pushing through
Emotions,cold and barren,slowly repeating
If I close my eyes an stop breathing forever
I can't watch the past roll away
GoodNight!Kennedy?
I Lost
From how you pronounced I love you,
as speaking to a love lust love friend.
To the way you look into her eyes,
as if longing for our end.
And I guess somewhere in-between just
seeing you for everything leading to late night sex
and good morning kisses turning into wake up texts,
I lost hope.
From how you would stop by,
anytime just because you could.
To how I now wake up alone,
anywhere you can’t be found.
And I perceive some place in the middle of just
laying with me when I fell ill
and sitting alone cold as my home cooked meal,
I lost faith.
I lost hope and faith in trying to make you stay.
I lost faith and hope that, back to me, you’ll find your way.
as speaking to a love lust love friend.
To the way you look into her eyes,
as if longing for our end.
And I guess somewhere in-between just
seeing you for everything leading to late night sex
and good morning kisses turning into wake up texts,
I lost hope.
From how you would stop by,
anytime just because you could.
To how I now wake up alone,
anywhere you can’t be found.
And I perceive some place in the middle of just
laying with me when I fell ill
and sitting alone cold as my home cooked meal,
I lost faith.
I lost hope and faith in trying to make you stay.
I lost faith and hope that, back to me, you’ll find your way.
Nightmare Before My Eyes
A night in fright is no delight
But I keep finding horrors sweet kisses on my lips
While tantalizing spirits keep my screams from unwinding
And hands thrash among my flesh
Though enticed with dangerous pleasure I know the feeling after will leave me diced
Flood of feelings from lost and alone to just wanting one more try
Some part of me knows and another finds you to be continuously chose
I guess honestly leaving you will require my best
And will power strong enough, with my demons, to deal
Which at this particular moment, quite frankly, does not exist
So I’ll continue to choose upon sins plentiful menu
Knowing one day the bill will catch up to me
But I keep finding horrors sweet kisses on my lips
While tantalizing spirits keep my screams from unwinding
And hands thrash among my flesh
Though enticed with dangerous pleasure I know the feeling after will leave me diced
Flood of feelings from lost and alone to just wanting one more try
Some part of me knows and another finds you to be continuously chose
I guess honestly leaving you will require my best
And will power strong enough, with my demons, to deal
Which at this particular moment, quite frankly, does not exist
So I’ll continue to choose upon sins plentiful menu
Knowing one day the bill will catch up to me
s(he's) br(ok)en
She's broken
sitting in a pile of her own tears
touching the once love token
trying to fine something that will subdue her fears
He's ok
drifting along with the beat of life
not even bothering to look her way
utterly oblivious to her internal strife
She broke
when you acted as if you never told her "I love you"
but that was just the punch line of a bad joke
and her silent pleads of it all to end never came true
sitting in a pile of her own tears
touching the once love token
trying to fine something that will subdue her fears
He's ok
drifting along with the beat of life
not even bothering to look her way
utterly oblivious to her internal strife
She broke
when you acted as if you never told her "I love you"
but that was just the punch line of a bad joke
and her silent pleads of it all to end never came true
Never would have thought it would end like this.
Never would have thought
it would end like this.
Never would have imagined
it would be such an evil bliss.
Never could have guessed
you felt this way
Never could have put it together
you would have this to say
Never would have believed
it would end so quick.
Never would have conjured
it would give me such a slip.
Never should have put faith
in something so young.
Never should have put loved
in something so sing song.
But if I never opened up
and gave you my heart
I would have never known
where true love should start
I think that's why I'm reacting so calm.
it would end like this.
Never would have imagined
it would be such an evil bliss.
Never could have guessed
you felt this way
Never could have put it together
you would have this to say
Never would have believed
it would end so quick.
Never would have conjured
it would give me such a slip.
Never should have put faith
in something so young.
Never should have put loved
in something so sing song.
But if I never opened up
and gave you my heart
I would have never known
where true love should start
I think that's why I'm reacting so calm.
To My Ears
My heart beats extremely loud
And incredibly close to my ears.
Almost as if I’m laying on top of
The very thing inside of me.
Almost as if I’m not the only one
Made this way.
But I know this could not be.
I know no one else’s actually has a heart.
I learn that the all too often.
So now here I am.
Looking down into
Honey golden eyes.
Working my hands over
Skin that feels as soft as mine.
Strangest thing is an even and shallow beet.
Almost like a heart calling out so sweet.
But I know that’s not possible.
And incredibly close to my ears.
Almost as if I’m laying on top of
The very thing inside of me.
Almost as if I’m not the only one
Made this way.
But I know this could not be.
I know no one else’s actually has a heart.
I learn that the all too often.
So now here I am.
Looking down into
Honey golden eyes.
Working my hands over
Skin that feels as soft as mine.
Strangest thing is an even and shallow beet.
Almost like a heart calling out so sweet.
But I know that’s not possible.
Quick Update
Since you left me I:
Made a song and got a million off you, when I just wrote about how it felt lying with a lie without remembering why
Put together a mixed-tape and called it you, now everywhere I see what came to be of the fairy tale called we
Got hits from people listening to you, so sad how you let music in when it gives you the preverbal taste of your own medicine
A record deal came from sulking over you, too bad my claim to fame came from expressing my biggest pain
My first CD was a message to you, I can take a situation and free sorrows condemnation as in my now platinum demonstration
Funny you stayed in my life long after you left my heart
Made a song and got a million off you, when I just wrote about how it felt lying with a lie without remembering why
Put together a mixed-tape and called it you, now everywhere I see what came to be of the fairy tale called we
Got hits from people listening to you, so sad how you let music in when it gives you the preverbal taste of your own medicine
A record deal came from sulking over you, too bad my claim to fame came from expressing my biggest pain
My first CD was a message to you, I can take a situation and free sorrows condemnation as in my now platinum demonstration
Funny you stayed in my life long after you left my heart
The Sting
Love turns the world into a battle field
The pain in my words I weald
But mine cut far less than his
Yet, it’s an enjoyable pain
And there’s always more when done
In a fairer world, he/I would be dead
Because no matter how war comes
There is always casualties
The pain in my words I weald
But mine cut far less than his
Yet, it’s an enjoyable pain
And there’s always more when done
In a fairer world, he/I would be dead
Because no matter how war comes
There is always casualties
Beautiful Smiles
Beautiful smiles,
Pretty lies,
And people dreaming with their eyes open
Deceiving laughs,
Peaceful cries,
And people who have given up hoping
Things that make hearts break
Saturday night stars,
Friday night loving,
And people’s intentions more selfish then you ever knew
Moments ago,
Hopes shoving,
And people’s fairytales that never come true
Pretty lies,
And people dreaming with their eyes open
Deceiving laughs,
Peaceful cries,
And people who have given up hoping
Things that make hearts break
Saturday night stars,
Friday night loving,
And people’s intentions more selfish then you ever knew
Moments ago,
Hopes shoving,
And people’s fairytales that never come true